welcome to plotwist.co (pt.2)
let's try this again, shall we?
Dear friend,
Here we are again!
If I had a penny for every time I’ve tried to revitalise plotwist.co over the past six years, I’d be a very rich woman by now. Every few months, I am overcome by the need to devote all my attention to my oldest creation, to stop focusing on other projects and pursuits and dedicate myself solely to plotwist. It is the ardency of this desire, perhaps, which makes it burn out so quickly every time. I plan and I plan and I envision a future in which I am able to stay on top of everything and then get overwhelmed with all the care and attention that plotwist needs to just be. Like a garden, it will not bloom if I do not water it. I’m famously quite bad a time management, and a big procrastinator, so that might have something to do with it also.
In September 2025, I decided I’d make my comeback. I returned to plotwist armed with a new filter and a handful of new posts and ideas for where I wanted to go next. Arguably, this wasn’t the best time to attempt a full-scale rebrand. I began a masters degree in October (new university, new city, new people), and plotwist soon tumbled down the list of priorities as I tried to get my feet underneath me. Now, it’s January, and (tentatively) I’ve started wondering if I’m more ready to approach a new start. I’ve always loved new years - they fill me with a kind of hope that I struggle to find at any other point in the year. They make the world feel shiny and squeaky clean and brand new. They make starting again feel doable. Not to fear, I’ve put a lot more thought this time around into how I can come back to plotwist and make it sustainable and long lasting (though I’m sure there will be dips and challenges along the way), and I finally feel ready to attempt coming back!! I know, I know. I try to come back so many times and it never quite goes how I hope, but if not now then when?
Recently, I watched “2026 creative impulsivity challenge: making art out of curiosity, not fear” by Anna Howard (anna) and the idea of creative impulsivity, which she describes as “taking the execution of your ideas seriously no matter how impractical they seem” struck a chord with me. I have so many plans, so many ideas for projects that branch out beyond my visions for plotwist! And somehow I never really set any of them in motion. I keep them all in my head, filed away in overflowing cabinets where at least I can keep them safe from judgement or failure. But the truth is that if I don’t take my plans and projects and creativity seriously, then I have already failed. I do myself a disservice every time I choose not to pursue my visions. How can I ever hope to become a better writer, a better artist, a better me, if I constantly deny myself the opportunity to try new things? If I never fully deeply believe in myself?
Anyway, all this is to say that I really really care about plotwist and the vision I had in mind when I created all those years ago. My intentions from September still stand, I want plotwist to be a place of reflection and creativity. I want to share my thoughts on the media I am consuming. I want it to be a place where I can constantly cultivate my writing and reading abilities. I’d be flattered if you could come along for the ride with me! I want to find a way to keep up with it that is sustainable for me and that allows me to keep creating and writing and talking to you guys whilst also not feeling overwhelmed by it all.
I leave you today with Mary Oliver’s poem; Wild Geese which resonates with me a lot, a little reminder to myself and anyone else who may need it that we are allowed to pursue our dreams and loves and ideas.
With love always,
Nique x